We have been blessed in having a Heavenly Father who sees us, knows us, loves us and forgives us! We have not always walked in a way that gave glory to Him (none of us do, for we all fall short of the glory of God Romans 3:23) especially in our busy lives in Los Angeles, though we tried in our own strength to do so. We failed.
Our hearts have 'always' been for the Lord, and for those we love... to know Him and experience the love that we have received through Him.....but life was hard there in LA, detraction was readily available and it was too easy to focus on ourselves, our pain, our desires... with what little time we had left. We didn't live fully in Christs desire for us...... Open our doors like we should, give like we could, listen like we should, speak truth like we should, extend grace like we should, pray like we should, surrender like we should.... lots of coulda', shoulda', woulda's as we reflect back on that time....but gosh thankfully, Jesus had done all this and continues too as we learn daily to do this more and more in a closer walk with Thee. His grace was and is efficient for us. 🙌🏼
Our weary hearts stepped out in faith, to go on this journey, down a different road with our Dad👆🏼, to learn to do those things better and strip away the things of this world that keep us from it (to shut out the noise to hear His whispers). To love greater, to listen more, to give what we can, to see God's heart for each created Soul. All our lives we will have varying successes and failures in this, until Christ is complete in us.
There are tons of things that compete for our time and our attention in this world. Redeeming the time, honestly doesn't come natural, it's pretty hard! As we learn to press in, God's grace abounds for us more and more and our eyes and hearts open to the greatness of His love for all people. We chose to go out into this world and seek His will via His Spirit, and share His gospel and serve others. To strip ourselves; from the chains of unfulfilling jobs, the bordem of paying bills, the unfulfilling depths of material things, ...though we know this particular way isn't necessary, to learn any of this. God meets us where we are at, we are thankful for the Lord's faithfulness to us, that as we stepped out in faith with this crazy desire to try something different (vanlife) and fully give of ourselves in a way that can seem unwise to some. We are humbly blessed that (for now) our days can look like this and that our hearts are being transformed through it.
Thank you to you!!! For loving us when we have failed you. Thank you for showing us mercy and grace, if we didn't. Thank you holding us up over the years through your prayers and kindness! Thank you for not abandoning us, when we may have. For giving of your hearts and other ways when we didn't deserve it. Forgive us in all the ways we have failed and will fail. Thank you for pressing into us and carrying us when we couldn't. We love you and are thankful for you.
We hope you will carry us in your prayers, for continued growth and sanctification. For wisdom and direction. For strength to not grow weary again! For acceptance with joy in all things!
We love you! JESUS KNOWS YOU! HE CREATED YOU AND HE LOVES YOU!
Update: We have been with my brother and family for the past 2 1/2 weeks and are praying on Gods timing when to leave and where to head next. Right now we could leave by next Monday or stay to the end of the month, depending if my brother buys a house or not. Our hearts have been stirred to pray about returning to Israel as well. We look forward to see who God sends us too and we pray now for them and that time.
To our family in Thousand Oaks and Gardnerville: You are daily on our hearts and we love you! Your encouragement and sacrifice to us is such a blessing! May God open the mercies of heaven upon you! Thank you for your support that allows us to do this! May it be returned to you many-fold.
To our sister in Boston: We are so proud of you and love you so so much!
To our brother here and his family: we are speechless at the gifts of the Lord that you bestow on us daily. Humbled by your servant heart that shows us the love of Jesus. May He be full in you all!!